i’m just sitting here, clicking away down the rabbit hole that is the internet. don’t you love it?
sometimes i love it. sometimes it’s the end of me. on a typical weeknight, i look up at 9:30 pm wondering where my evening has gone. wasn’t i supposed to make dinner? i could probably use a shower. why are my feet asleep? have i moved at all in the past four hours?
but then sometimes, i leave after all this great stuff people are writing and creating and sharing, feeling so inspired or uplifted or just lucky to get to see all of this in my lifetime.
this isn’t all i’ve done on my good friday off. i’ve been printing photos for some projects, and updating project life. i’ve watched a couple of good movies, and i’ve slept (which is definitely worth noting). and this morning, at 9:15, i dragged myself to a yoga class for the first time in at least eight months.
after the yoga class, i also hung out with my mom for the obligatory easter egg afternoon. this year we cheated and used washi tape for some hilariously simple eggs.
this mindless internet time suck leads me to thinking about time a lot. enjoying my time, fitting it all in, not zoning out and forgetting what i’m doing… there’s a difference between relaxing & enjoying the nothing, and completely not acknowledging that time is passing & not enjoying the nothing. i think realizing it’s happening and that i want to change it is one of the biggest steps.
it also makes me think about getting the things done that i want to, and just diving in to projects and plans that i think i will enjoy. i keep going back to elise’s blog post about this. she said a while ago that she is not an expert in any particular thing, except “making it work.” my favorite idea from that post is to just start. apparently she says it all the time. but it’s my favorite thing about her. though, i probably could not be more different from her in this regard.
and that might be my biggest downfall right now: just not starting. when i’m interested in doing something new, instead of jumping in, i read and research and pour myself into it. except then i struggle with ever turning that into reality for me. and i end up feeling discouraged or exhausted or like it’s just the worst idea ever.
which is silly.
so tonight, instead of thinking about what to do with my blog, and how to work on blogging more… instead of reading my favorite blogs for inspiration, and then feeling frustrated and walking away to get a bowl of ice cream… i decided to put it down on “paper.” right? because that’s what it will take to blog more. to just blog more.
it doesn’t hurt that i found a 6-month old (still good) pumpkin cider in my fridge and am celebrating friday night blogging.
this is earth shattering information, guys.
and i’m feeling like it’s true everywhere today. how should i start to take care of my body again? no, it’s not researching on the internet and watching documentaries and taking notes. it’s changing out of pajamas and getting to yoga class at 9:15 am.
right! done and done.
my cider is empty, and it’s time to go try out the first episode of “girls.”
happy long weekend to us. what are y’all up to??